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Wednesday, November 16, 2011

You want to get a little personal today???

With the holidays quickly approaching, I've been super busy with boring, but "got-to-be-done" mundane chores. Which leaves me with nothing really to blog about in the way of projects. So, I decided to open up and share a daily struggle of mine. Some of you may be dealing with the same ...weight!

I've struggled with my weight for years now. I can't recall a Monday morning in the last 15 years, that hasn't begun as the, "Start of my diet day!" On some Mondays I've actually made it until lunchtime. However, after yet another failed attempt, the cycle continued and I vowed to start again, each week, the following Monday.

So what triggers my weight issues? Many women blame it - and rightfully so - on having children. But being that I suffered from morning sickness for 9 months with both of mine ...not an issue for me. And I certainly can't blame it on genetics, another common factor. My dad is 67, normal weight, eats anything and everything he desires -often enough for several grown men at one meal. His metabolism, which I did not inherit, is astonishing. And my mom and brother are both small. I often joke, that I received the combined fat genes for all four of us!

I finally determined I was a "stress eater." Nerves have fueled many a hunger pangs for me. And my willpower was lacking to overcome.

Weeks ago, I reached a breaking point, and two things brought me to that moment.

First, several dear childhood friends of mine have lost loved ones recently. I felt strongly compelled to reach out to them during their time of loss. But griping fear of what they might think of me, most of whom I hadn't seen in 25 years, was too great to overcome. When Kevin and I married, I was a tiny little thing. I'm not a terribly vain person and do realize that most people age and gain a little weight over the years. Yet, I was imprisoned by the thoughts of someone judging me harshly for the extra weight. So, in my shame, I sent very personal cards and letters to my friends expressing my sympathy; ...feeling very guilty that I had not done so in person.

Secondly, a couple of weekends ago, I traveled to Raleigh to spend it with Ashley. Her dorm is on the third floor, and the terrain of her college campus very hilly. After trekking after her and up to her room for 2 days, I seriously thought I might die! I didn't want to embarrass her, so I tried with all my might to keep up with her, my breathing even, and my heart from protruding through my shirt from the severe pounding. Feelings of being winded terrified me. What a wake-up call!

I knew the time for change was dire! If for no other reason health! I ran across the 21 Day Challenge Online, by Lysa Terkeurst.

Off on a tangent... I'm co-chairing a Women's Conference Committee at our church, which will be hosting Lysa as our guest speaker in January. As I was gathering pictures and biographical information on her, I found the Challenge.

Terkeurst is the author of Made To Crave, which I have not yet read. I assume the Online Challenge is a mini version of the book.

Back to my story ...

Fifteen days ago, I signed up for the 21 Day Challenge Online, receiving one short devotion through email, daily. The first 4-5 days, I prayed and read ...and nothing sunk it ...the words just glazed over me. Did not help one bit! Still I ate -- no willpower, still gaining weight -- still very discouraged! But I continued to read.

The daily devotions were short and interesting. Lysa is a very witty writer. My attention was captured if nothing else. I also continued to pray. And then, a transformation of my spirit emerged. Willpower erupted from my inner being --- and a week and half later, I am 8 1/2 pounds lighter!!! And it really hasn't been that difficult. I'm not hungry, but feeling satisfied and full with much less on my plate. I have many pounds to go on this journey, but I know that I can do it now! I feel ...very accomplished.

The following verses have been an inspiration as well...

When I'm feeling discouraged and unworthy .... "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." -Psalm 139:14 (NIV)

For hope to overcome ... "For you, O Lord, are my hope, ..." -Psalm 71:5

And for strength ... "I can do everything through him who gives me strength." -Phil 4:13 (NIV)

If you are still with me...still reading this post, please know that it was not easy to open up and discuss my insecurities. I'm a private person where my feelings are concerned! I'd much rather be sharing a new project, thrifting find, or decorations ---that is "safe" for me. But, if this post is encouraging to at least one other lady, then it was well worth my stepping out of my comfort zone to open up. I'll be hitting that "Publish Post," button with great reluctance.

If you would like to read more about the 21 Day Challenge, go to Lysa's Web Site for more information. I also have her blog listed on my sidebar. These devotions have been such an encouragement to me, that I am saving them in my emails, and intend on rereading them daily when I reach day 21.

{Note: I am in no way affiliated with Lysa Terkeurst or her ministry. That's more for her protection that mine! :) }

-Now if I can just get motivated to exercise! At least I am now feeling as though I can ! :) Baby steps....


  1. Rhonda, Thank you so much for sharing your personal story. You are brave and honest and encourages me. I'm small and always have been, but this last year I've been packing on the pounds. Menopause is catching up with me along with my slower motabolism. I appreciate that you shared this book and your heart. I am really wanting to stay healthy for my own self and for my family and future grandchildren. God bless you as you courageously move ahead. You are a blessing to me and to so many others out there. Hugs, Kathi

  2. How inspiring Rhonda! Great accomplishment, you've done well so far. I really enjoy the Proverbs 31 Ministry and have heard wonderful comments about the difference Made to Crave has made for folks. Beautiful post, what an encouragement you are, thanks for sharing your heart!!!

  3. Funny that the trip to be with Ashley would be your turning point. I took Kaje' a year ago to the U (University of Utah) for Honors Day and to tour the college. It's very hilly also and we did much, much walking. It was my wake up call. Gave up caffeinated drinks pretty much and I've since been able to keep my weight steady but haven't been able to lose weight. The majority of my problem comes from needing a knee surgery so I'm not as active as I could/should be. I've found when I can sit and sew that I don't eat and I don't drink sweet drinks. The secret, I don't want to stain my fabric or get it dirty and honestly I'm enjoying what I'm doing so much that I don't even think about eating! My weak spot is working on a computer all day. I tend to snack at the computer. It keeps me awake with the early hours I keep (up at 4:30 a.m. to be on the computer by 6:00 a.m.). I'm not a stress eater. When I'm under stress I don't eat but amazingly don't lose any weight during that time either. I hate being hypothyroid, especially living in my little family of high metabolism people who are very active in work, school, and sports....well you've seen the pictures of my family and none of them are overweight by any means....just me.

    I love the idea of this challenge and will have to do it some day....well hopefully soon. I'll be anxious to see how this continues to go for you and I wish you all the luck in the world bz I know how hard this is (I'm living it too). I think you'll find you have more people who identify with your post than ones who don't. Keep the faith in yourself and you'll make it to your goal! No matter what you look like, I'm glad you're my friend bz I have grown to like and care about who you really are and not what you look like. :)

  4. What a great post. I know exactly how you feel and I truly mean that. 2 1/2 years ago I was 40 lbs. heavier, had high blood pressure that was threatening my health and feet that gave out on me all the time. I was 50 years old. One night I went to bed with a racing heart and feet that felt like they were on fire. The next morning I made a vow that I was going to fix myself if I could. It was slow and at times pure torture. I lost 15 lbs. the first year and another 25 the second. There were times when I gave up. But something always made me try again. Now my blood pressure is under control and my feet are PAIN FREE. I can walk my dog without wanting to die. I had become very anti-social. I still am but I'm working on it and it's getting better. If you ever need a pep talk just shoot me an email. I'm here for you. The very best of luck. ~Ann

  5. We all have that moment in our lives when we realize that we need to make a change. you have made a great start and i am sure that sharing your experience is going to give hope to others. I am proud of you!! i will keep you in my prayers.~Grace

  6. Rhonda... thank you. Thank you for being real. Thank you for being vulnerable enough to share your struggles. I, too, have struggled recently with weight that will not leave this body. Your post has encouraged me. I think I will have to check out this challenge. God's Word will not return void... no matter what the subject! HUGS!

  7. I've been meaning to stop by and say hi and welcome back to blogging - finally I made it over here! And I'm so glad I happened to catch this post. GREAT job on your weight loss, but even GREATER job on sharing your story as an encouragement!! :)

    I have struggled with weigh too and am at my heaviest. Only in the last couple of months have hubs and I started losing by following a low-carb diet. That and I have been praying for God to change my attitude about food. And it is slowly changing. Partly, I needed to realize that I don't have the power on my own to make it happen - I need His help!

    Sounds like a great challenge. Hope you had a lovely and blessed Thanksgiving! Hugs!


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